Where to begin...

About one year ago, January 9 to be exact, I threw away my birth control pills and my husband and I decided to start "trying" to have a baby. I thought this would be like magic, a month of the pill and I would be pregnant, not so much! After about 3 months of trying I was getting frustrated, my husband insisted it takes 6 months for the birth control to "ware off."

Fast forward to June... still not pregnant, and of course just to mess with our minds a little more I was late, only a day, but that day seems like an eternity when you are waiting to see if you are pregnant.

Our summer, as usual was insane, people who say teachers don't work in the summer they haven't actually met many teachers. Although I worked a lot this summer it wasn't really a job. I began babysitting a close family friends infant triplets and spent about 4 days at a time with them. In the process Stephanie, the triplets mom, and I became extremely close. Maybe it was the sleep deprivation and slap happy conversations, or maybe it was the fact that she just accomplished what I wanted more than anything in the world. The summer passed and still no baby.

When TTC and waiting for the BFP and AF ends up showing up I started reading infertility blogs and chat boards on different websites. The beginning of that sentence may seem like gibberish to many, but it is common talk on these sometimes crazy boards.

In September, I went to a consultation at my gynecologist office, and through a series of really weird events I decided that was not the office I wanted to stay at anymore. AND they said my least favorite line of the entire process, "you are young, it will happen, keep trying." Toward the end of October I switched to another office and met with a midwife who I LOVE. She was sweet informative and best off all said I was trying way too long without any results.

Just before Thanksgiving Ryan and I had our first appointment at SJ Fertility. Over the next few weeks I had 5 different tests done and Ryan had his first semen analysis. Those tests were all interesting in their own right. Through testing, we discovered that Ryan suffers from a severely low sperm count. Our only option would be IVF, in vitro fertilization.

Beginning IVF opens a whole other "can of worms" more testing, waiting, followed by more testing, and oh yeah more waiting :) However, there is, fingers crossed, an end in sight. We have already met with our nurse coordinator and have had a few of the tests done already so now we just wait.

I am starting this blog for me. If someone else wants to read it, okay. Maybe it will help someone going through the same thing as us, awesome. Hopefully someday I can show it to my little girl or boy so they know just how much their mommy and daddy wanted them in their lives, AMAZING.